...look and see,,,

Look into the river,,, look into the lake,,, look into the faces into the window glasses passing you by,,, into the mirror,,, at the reflection staring back at you,,,, what do you see? What can you glimpse..? Can you see further than that nod ,,, further than those enquiring brows,,, further than those pools filled with secrets,,,, further than those smiling eyes,,, that held in breath?

Can’t you see your face reflecting a book filled with chapters no one else but you can read,,, don’t you realize that along those lines marked by change and age,,, in you there is a growing need? A need to understand,,, a need to appreciate,,, a need to marvel,,, to wonder ,,, to stop,,, to stare ,,, to drop all coats of pretence,,,

Don’t you see,,, don’t you understand what you willingly do,,,? Will you keep pretending that its unintentional,,, that you have no clue,,,, will you never stop inflicting hurt upon yourself,,, or is it that you the pain and misery surrounding it, love and enjoy more than the person in your heart you behold and woo?

Why is that you always choose that,,, that you will need to give up one day,,,, why is that you always go for them who you know will depart ,,, will leave and deeply hurt you may,,, why is that you always choose to run from them ,,,, who everything up for you would give,,, why is that you hurt them instead of realizing that a happy life with them you might be able to live,,,

Why do you keep running from everything that is too real,,, to close to precious to your heart,,,, why do you choose to stay away from those who might un-riddle that secretly hidden book deep down you do with fire and ice so closely guard?

Why do you keep pushing those away who deeply care,,, is it your fear of hurting yourself or hurting them more,,, what is it you are running from,,,, and what is it you are escaping for? Is that why you avoid that mirror so often every day,,,, is that why you are so quiet so aloof ,,, is that why with your smiles and laughs your happiness you always try to proof?

Is that why you excel at taking care of others and yet won’t let anyone come to close to you? Is that why your bests friends are the wind,,, the rain ,,, the darkening night,,,,, is that why while looking into your eyes a simple smile is all what one can see,,,, is that why you quickly turn away,,, laugh it off,,, finding other things to say and do,,, is that why you joke,,, run,,, dance and sing,,, is it because to look deeply,,, to look closely,,, you fear someone might see,,, someone might understand,,, someone might more to you discover and find,,,????

Is that my dear why you live in a world secluded by another earth? Is that why for you everything has meaning,,, everything has souls,,,, everything has million different worth’s? Is that why you brain tease and puzzle everyone around without meaning to,,, without actually having a clue,,, is that why every time I look at you,,,, I nod,,, smile and wonder “who are you”...?



23.01.2011